2021.09.27 03:49 southiest Sometimes things just don't get better
I've been depressed for years, I've tried almost everything. I went to therapy, I tried antidepressants, I genuinely changed my lifestyle, I been more open-minded to things, I been more open with myself, I made more of an effort to help myself financially, I achieved my yearly goal last year(save up money to buy a car) and my goals this year (buy a car get my license and go to school) I tried and failed at building a meaningful relationship, I grew closer in my spirituality and God, I loved deeper, I put more effort into myself, I've made plans for the future, I changed, I bettered myself...and I don't feel better. It got me to thinking that maybe some people can't be cured and this is it. Cause out of all of those things I've done and the positive changes I made...I still feel the same and idk what more I can do. I knew this year was gonna be especially tough for me cause I choose to challenge myself and my insecurities, but I thought I'd feel better after doing so but here I am feeling the same exact way that I have been feeling since the beginning. I don't know what to do but keep pushing, I don't wanna hear no superficial shit like "it will get better" "your loved" all that shit i heard it all man I've said it to people and i don't think it's true and I really don't wanna hear it anymore lol. Sick of society, don't like people, wanna be left alone but I'm stuck in Boston cause I'm fucking broke, and the prices for things here will keep me that way. I'm stuck on this mundane hampster wheel and idk what to do. I don't wanna kill myself but if i was put in a situation where I could die I'd probably let it happen. I ani't got no family pretty much literally beside my brother and he came down with this issue that I'm praying isn't serious cause if i lost him then i definitely have no purpose. I want a meaningful relationship but everyone is so sensitive shallow and entitled nowadays that idk if I can do that. I wasted 9 months on a relationship for it to end with me being ghosted and I guess it would've hurt less if I wasn't trying o be myself and be comfortable and share with someone my flaws and my great qualities. Be open be honest try and love. The only positive from that situation is I know how I love now and that love isn't some fairy tale bullshit, it's hard work and requires work from both people not just one. yeah idk just wanted to vent I know no one here will offer anything of substance that isn't regarding any of the phrases i mentioned above. Shit I even tried to post here for people and be encouraging and honest cause I don't wish this shit on anybody.
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2021.09.27 03:49 Darthwolfgamer How rare are X Upgrade modules, to my guess really super rare cause I just found it off a landed pilot.
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2021.09.27 03:49 SLEDGELIFE Thank you for the views and support! I’m going to keep grinding for you guys!
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2021.09.27 03:49 Rabbitboi69 Horrible scheduling
Does anyone have horrible scheduling, like you work five days a week but then your weekends are random.
For ex: you’ll work sun-Tuesday then you’ll be off wed but at work Thursday and Saturday then be off Friday.
It’ll be random like this every week so it impossible to plan things in your own life cuz of this trash schedule.
I used to have a schedule like this but now I only work three fixed day part time a week which is much better
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2021.09.27 03:49 dolphin006roman Rebel Resolve, S1E14, 19 min.
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2021.09.27 03:49 dbsgirl I just cannot love my family more
We've just come home from a quick weekend for my cousin's daughter's wedding and as usual 98% of my extended family was there. When I got married 21 years ago, 100% were there. That's what we do lol.
My Dad has a brother and a sister. His brother has 4 kids, 2 of whom have a total of 3 kids. His sister has 3 sons, 2 of whom have a total of 5 kids. My Dad has 2 daughters and I have my family with one daughter. And then of course spouses and such added in. We're not huge in numbers, but y'all, they're just the greatest. We never have drama or issues or gossip, just love and comfort.
My husband and I have had a terrible go during the pandemic with some of his family stuff really taking over our lives. Because of that and the pandemic my family wasn't able to have our reunion last year so this wedding was our first time to see each other in almost 3 years. We've never gone that long before! So it was just amazing to be together and celebrate.
When our Matriarch passed away 18 years ago, we all stayed at her tiny house together sleeping on couches and air mattresses and sleeping bags because we just wanted to be there and together. And we realized with her gone we wouldn't run into each other on summer trips anymore so we established the reunion plans! We get together every other year and rotate through which branch organizes each year. We have never missed a reunion until last year. Usually there's a couple of folks who can't make it for one reason or another and that's ok but most of the time it's really all of us together.
When my husband came to the first one it was really the first time he got to spend time getting to know all of them good and when asked afterward how it was he said it was like having dinner with 30 of me lmao because we're all so boisterous and lively and just alike!
As I'm aging and after dealing with some family stuff on his side this last year I've realized more deeply how rare it is to have a family like this. My daughter's generation (we call them G4) are becoming adults and getting married and stuff and they're all just so loving and happy to be with each other. They're even petitioning to move the reunions to be annual instead of every other year lol, because they want to get together more!
Anyway, I'm rambling lol but I just wanted to share that there are magical families out there with nothing but love and care and deep comfort among them. I'm the baby of my generation (G3) and my 7 cousins are like my brothers and sisters when we're together. It is always so fun and comforting to be together.
I just really love my family a ton and needed to tell someone. Thanks for listening!
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2021.09.27 03:49 ascii1995 Chey is bae
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2021.09.27 03:49 -Trichotillomaniac- I really wish you could have an actual trio of partners in PMD4 and not just a connection-link third Pokémon that you can’t name :/ (also sorry for poor camera quality)
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2021.09.27 03:49 redder2710 Where to buy a custom suit for an athletic body type in KC?
Hi there, my fiance (29M) is looking to buy a suit for our wedding this December. We've been to a few places and it looks like we will have to have one custom made for him. He really enjoys the gym and so he's broad across the shoulders, narrow at the waist, and some pants are tight on his quads. Does anyone have a recommendation for a place that does reasonably priced suits in KC, perhaps even one that works with his body type a lot? Thanks!!
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2021.09.27 03:49 _Galakt1c Sustainment chest rigs.